Too late

Still.

You know self-love is important. I'm not the first person preaching that to you; probably that's what most of the positive stuff I read is about, always circling around knowing your worth, loving yourself first, putting your needs ahead of others etc. And no denying, because well you're all you have at the end of the day.
But somehow, when I say that ^ , a part of me dies inside. Why? because accepting that is sort of like, giving up hope on other people, giving up hope of finding something permanent, outside of yourself. And that to me, is a very very grim thought.
Also, somewhere in the middle of encouraging self love, we're unknowingly fostering a culture of conceit. How? Maybe because we don't really clarify what self- love means anymore. It's just put forward in a very no-nonsense way after you've been rendered heart broken by someone perhaps. Why firstly did someone have to break your heart for you to realize that you must love yourself? Self love must exist independent of people and circumstances, it's simply acceptance of your flaws and being comfortable with them, and taking pride in your journey to becoming who you are.
How does the idea of loving yourself even remotely interfere with the idea of loving someone else? Why are we told that we need to put ourselves above everyone else, I mean.. that's kind of selfish I think. Your self worth is not a benchmark to measure for love for anyone else.
You love yourself tirelessly everyday, even when you make mistakes you forgive yourself and you love yourself anyway, and then you hurt people and tell yourself it's okay and forgive yourself again. Why are we using self love, as a tool to cleanse our conscience of guilt? Telling yourself that you're human and you're allowed to make mistakes is all good, but you need to at least make an apology before you forgive yourself? Why are we so conveniently getting rid of that step?
Learn to draw the line between being selfish and knowing your worth, it's a very blurry line mostly, but you'll know when you're crossing it. And stop thinking that it's okay to cross it, because we don't hold the right to cause infinite damage and walk away from it, not for yourself, not for any other reason.
You're still supposed to love someone to the end of the world, and you can't do that if you're so busy being selfish and forgiving yourself for all the BS you're pulling off under the cover of self love. So stop. Now. Stop giving yourself unlimited chances when you don't give that to anyone else, because you're gonna have to look at yourself in the mirror eventually, and the mirror won't tell you to love yourself then.

The damaged.

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Hope.